Tipu and I are going to RIS in Toronto after all.  We had decided against it because ticket prices were ridiculous but we caught a break and are going.  It’ll just be Toronto though, no other towns.  In addition to the conference we’ll be there a few more days.  I’m not sure what we’ll be doing right now.  As always, if you have suggestions send them over.  I for sure want to go to Rich Tree again.

I let someone back in my life that I don’t think I should have yet.  The person broke my heart years ago and caused me a lot of pain, grief and disruptions.  I gave the person another chance.  I tried to pretend that nothing had happened and started off anew hoping the past would stay in the past and would not influence the future.  This was a mistake.  I’m not sure the person ever realized how much they had hurt me.  I was so anxious to restart the relationship again I was reluctant to talk and resolve the past in fear that it would break the reunion.  Anyways, nothing was ever resolved, now there’s a bigger conflict and I am hurt again.  I’m sort of wondering if there are resolutions to everything.  I don’t think time solves much, it might dull the intensity of conflict but unless there is insight I think we’re doomed to just go in circles with some people.  We just never got on the same page when it came to expectations for each other.  So I’m left thinking what next.  Do I try and find a mediator?  Can I risk giving this person another chance?  Will the people around me accept this person again?  Is it completely just plain broken?  Can I leave such a big unresolved conflict and still be happy with myself?  Do I just give it time?  Is changing my name and joining witness protection an option?

It’s gotten to a point that I would endanger current relationships to try and fix the messed up one.  Of course I’m writing everything quite cryptically because at the end of the day I do not like the world in my business but still need a space to reflect.  I’m just going to give it time for now.  I don’t want to screw things up further.  I’m lost and I will just sit and stare for a while I think.

I’m blessed to have Tipu.  No one has tried harder to keep me functional.  I am also blessed to have friends who listen when they’re really not obliged to.  I’m probably meant to learn something from this mess.

I pretty much hated this movie.  I like my animated movies to be completely fairy-talish or goofy.  I hate it when animated movies have animal characters interacting in the human world.  For example, Ratatoille or even that penguin movie that somehow started a wave of UN resolutions.  In this movie the bee actually starts a law suit against the humans.  I like Shrek, Incredibles, Toy Story etc.  They had tight conceivable plot lines.  Not this kind of bizarre stuff that’s been going on lately.

505 St. Mary Avenue

This little cafe opened up within the last year or two.  I went there for the first time maybe a month ago.  Since then I think I’ve gone back at least three times.  It’s right beside the Winnipeg Art Gallery.  There’s plenty of seating.  There’s plenty of food to choose from.  You can get a full meal or just a snack or even just a really good cookie.  They’re known for their catering but now they’ve opened a restaurant for you to visit as you please.  I’m a big fan of their house fries.  It has a few sweet potatoes mixed in for colour.