Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again?
Like:
- I tell myself I won’t stay up super late. It just ends up eating into the second day. I find myself up right now at 4.17am waiting for fajr!!
- I tell myself I’ll go work out. I can’t work out when I haven’t slept enough because it makes me feel sick.
- I tell myself I won’t eat unless I’m hungry. I am now the bottom feeder in this house. I hate to see food thrown away plus I’ve unfortunately taken on eating as a recreational activity.
- I tell myself I will start early on an assignment. I end up handing in and finishing the assignment the same day that they’re due.
- I tell myself I will not nod off in class. I have a stiff neck from nodding off in class.
- I tell myself I will watch the news. I don’t remember the last time I watched the news. I only peruse news websites but it’s not the same.
- I tell myself I will read extra books on my own time. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just never really took to reading even more than I already read for school.
It is now 4.25 am. Still not fajr. Can’t really do school work b/c mind is clumsy.
the story of my life. u shoulda called me, i was up all night. and yesterday too. brain is dead. let’s face it nusraat, you’re just finally venturing into the realms of reality. The amount of focus you had in undergrad is equivalent to my focus in high school… but you can’t keep it up forever. This may be a pessimistic view, but it’s true. You know you’re not that same person that had panic attacks over assignments that were still due the next day
and you know why? Cuz life offers more important and perhaps just more interesting things for you to do.
In due time inshaAllah, in due time, you’ll be able to do all these things like watching the news and reading more books. Just one step at a time.
Like ‘someone’ always keeps telling me, you gotta set realistic goals.
Peace.
omg, thats exactly what i go through everyday!!! i was up till 5:30am just staring at the wall. i guess university is hazardous to all our healths. my goal was to get active and run to class from home but got lazy and took the bus. my goal was to start studying for finals but got lazy and watched tv instead. my goal was to do the laundry but got lazy and took a nap in the day. my goal was to cook a decent supper but got lazy and became friends with mr. noodles.
there are something you can’t change until you get older i guess. just sitting here and blogging is wasting precious study time, but what can i do if i’m a slave to technology? meh, i always ponder how much harder i would work if i lived in a developing country. if i compare myself to students there, i will just hate myself even more. ahh well!!! being lazy here is a priviledge i guess
You’re right Shaheen. Realistic goals are important.
Nahian, I think you’re right about the privilege thing. We have the privilege to have a more amusing life at times.
Were you actually describing my life? I have not found that much similarities with anyone else with my life. **Other than that staying that late, I am such a loser I can’t even do that, and my assignments are much too often overdue!
hey, making mistakes are good. that’s how we learn, even if it takes a few tries. besides, if you did all those things the way you wanted it done and never made mistakes, there’d be no room for higher learning and thus you would have achieved perfection, and given that that’s impossible…i’d say you’re just a normal human being dealing with normal human things. ok. so maybe saying you’re a normal human being was pushing it, but nevertheless. lighten up! it’s not the end of the world. they’re just assignments, it’s just food, it’s just the occasional nap mid-class…besides, you’ve missed WHY you were awake in the first place…waiting for Fajr…what better reason could you need to be awake…I’d guess that’s a pretty good reason.
han ji han ji bilkul.
(i just realized that makes no sense to you azizah but uhhh yeah, it’s ok, u’re one of us now, just smile and nod. Nusraat never understands anything we say anyways but she’s bengali, she doesn’t count.)
okay wait….what did that mean? yes? yes? abuhh?
loosely translated: your mother makes cheese and the moon consists of it
oh, and hepcat i really appreciate the visit
uhhhhhhhhhhh nusraat? our sayings aren’t as ridiculous as bengalis like to keeep em so no, azizah, that’ snot what it means. BUT IT WAS A GOOD TRY! hahhahahahaha and you know astaghferullah i love bengalis i mean nothing by it for all you other beejee’s out there.
but no one has said what it means yet. so thus far, I’m under the impression it’s something about cheese and moons.
Pakistanis can’t keep a train of thought, even the hybrids
Yes. Yes. Of course (completely, toootally, form of agreement)